Well, I finally did it.

It was actually a couple of weeks ago now. I purchased a DSLR like I have been wanting too.

It was quite the unexpected emotional purchase which is why I think I have kept it so quiet and underwraps all this time.

It took me hours to even take it out of the box, then when I did it spent the next week in it's new home tucked in the basement corner where I pulled it out every so often to wander the house, snap a few very awful, blurry shots then slipped it right back into the little hiding place I made for it.

When Michel finally convinced me to take my new friend out side I was extremely reluctant with a dash of anxiousness. I am not really sure why, when I wanted something so bad, did it seem so overwhelming and distant.

I went over to Michel's and she took me out side in the snow to play with it...I was shocked when I actually started to pull off a nice photo. I could actually take a picture with this camera. I felt some relief set in.

She had originally told me all this, the disdain and frustration I would feel when I first got the camera, she warned me I would feel like I will never be able to take a good photo and that frustration would set it. She told me to just shoot in auto for the first while until I felt comfortable, got the feel of the camera in my hands....but I didn't listen, I nodded my head and said yes, yes of course I will, but I had read the tutorials, I have researched apertures and shutter speed on line, I could DO this....insert Wa Wa Waaaaaaa,here.

Check this out, I am the blue line at the bottom right now.

I am seeing the light..punny...and have bought myself a camera bag to safely venture out with my new baby. Slowly, but I understand now that I have lots of time, a lifetime actually, and I am under no pressure to have to know how to do this perfectly right out of the box. That may actually be the real beauty in all this. Making it a part of my new and improved slower me.

I am snapping and feeling and ready to grow, I just had to be knocked down a peg first so I could start the real learning process.