....I am not qualified for the job.
I went to Tayler's parent/teacher/student interveiws last night. Grade 10.
Boy was I nervous. I didn't know what to say, what to ask. I had no comments or concerns on how Tayler was doing in school. She gets grades in the high 70's and 80's, she loves all her classes, she has great friends, is a super star in musical theater, and even oppted to do summer school this year just so she could fit more courses in....and...SHE IS STILL IN SCHOOL.
Just months after leaving grade 10 myself I decided I had enough of that and moved back to WPG, on my own. Got my self a job at an auto body shop and signed up to be an apprentice painter. Away I went on some crazy road to adulthood full of very bad decisions and poor choices all the way. I got my drivers license using the auto body shops courtesy car for pete sake.
Who am I to go to my kids high school and judge how she is doing when I couldn't even do it myself?
Yes, she is turning out pretty good despite my lack of parental abilities, but going to that school last night was inwardly embarrasing for me.
I'm just going to wing it from here.
And sometimes that's all you can do! Judging from what I know about Tayler, you've done a great job so far!!
ReplyDeleteI don't have any wise words to share but I do have a good memory to pass on. One time we went to Penticton for a visit and Grandpa so proudly got out a little company magazine that had a picture of you driving a forklift on it. He was so proud of all you had accomplished and how far you had come and the amazing kids you have. It's totally stuck with me.
ReplyDeleteAnd if someone like Grandpa is proud of you then that's praise indeed : )
I think I would rather have an under qualified parent than an over qualified parent. You are much more willing to admit that you were wrong, and learn from your mistakes. Between that and the ability to love your kids more than yourself, you are set! Don't doubt yourself, you seem like a pretty freaking cool mom to me!
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