I finally get it!! *updated*

After all these years I can finally say 'You were right Terry' ......there is actually only one way to to put a roll of toilet paper on the holder....it DOES matter.!! What was I thinking? ***************************************************************************************************** Well, you make me laugh family, there is no real story here. I think I have just finally been broke. All these years later and I have a 'way' that I must have the toilet paper hang...it was not a 'right' way to anyone but Terry. I never cared, I cared so little in fact that I would purposely put the roll on the 'wrong' way just to get a rise put of my guy.



Poor thing, there was so much to adjust to in the first placed for him moving in with his wonderful lady and her three adorable kids and now he is being sabotaged by the one he loves on purpose!!
I just thought it was so ridiculous to have a 'right way' to hang the roll.....so there I was, last week, doing my ~doo-dee~ reaching for the blessed cushions of wipeness when I couldn't find the end...How frustrating!! I spun and I spun only to have a big beam of light shine down on the roll with angelic music coming from (the toilet?) God only knows where, it occurred to me that the toilet paper was on wrong!!

I made a mental note to apologise to Terry (still have yet to do that) for his years of torture and abuse.....funny thing is he never complained, he never said a word, he would just quietly fix the roll to his liking and go about his business, never a peep. I thought I was so funny.

I have now officially been trained in the proper way to hang a roll of toilet paper. check this out your training awaits.

And there she goes...

I know your not supposed to live vicariously through your children but I wonder if that only applies when it is something you are making them do rather than something they are doing all on their own ?~that you probably could have done yourself had you maybe been just a little bit smarter and more of a forward thinking 16 year old~

This latest form of virtual living for me comes from the fact the Tayler has now flown off to New York and not the one in Ontario either, the REAL New York. The New York that I spend my whole life daydreaming about.

This picture was taken at the airport at 4 am Thursday morning as I dropped off Tayler and her friend who stayed the night. (her friends parents are clearly smarter than I)

They have the most amazing eight days planned out ahead of them.

I had a dentist appt later that morning and as they asked me how I was and I blah blah'd about being tired and why, my hygienist Terri listened and asked questions and nodded her head. I start in about how jealous I was and how I have always wanted to go and you know what she said!?...."Then why haven't you gone?" I couldn't immediately answer that question. Why haven't I gone if I have always REALLY really wanted to go? It is possible.

As I type this my two boys are also leaving for their most amazing spring break ever. They are off to Banff with their Dad for a week of skiing/snowboarding in the mountains...How did they all get here? Mind blowing.

I on the other hand took a day off work. I am dubbing it my 'mental health' day. I have been doing this a lot more lately....this is already my third this year. I just book the day off with just minor 'maybe' plans and go from there.

My early morning plans fell through unavoidably so now that I am up and properly fed, thanks to my wonderful husband who is now at work , I sip coffee in my PJ's happily blogging away.

Is this the most boring blog ever? ...haha I think I am going to go shopping!!!

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It's what happens after a gorging of crab and a few ~ah-hem~ some drinks.

At the Movies

Nathan and I took in a 3D movie together a little while back...just him and I.

It was nice to get out, just the two of us.

It's a tough to find quality one on one time with the kids these days but I am determined to make this a regular thing....I know a 13 year old boy who could desperately use some although he would never admit it.

Sunshine and Happiness

Showed up in my mail box today.....

written inside the envelope was:

Spring has Sprung,
the grass is riz.
I wonder where,
the birdies is?

Happy Spring!

It was signed....Michel.

What a wonderful surprise!

What was the last really cool thing you got in the mail?

Separation Anxiety

This is what I get when I find myself in a vehicle alone in the morning going to work.

Terry and I have, for many years now, driven to and from work together.

Sometimes we get each other revved up for the days pending chaos. Or we talk about the schedule for the day ahead for each other and the rest of the family, or we get caught up with some feelings that may have been overlooked in the hustle and bustle of things.

Sometimes we just drive in silence listening to the morning DJ give it to the people who have nothing better to do than call in to a radio station to complain about everything.

That's kind of fun.

Driving home we use the opportunity to get all of our work day frustrations, gossip and annoyances out, this leaves room for nothing but us, family and all our many responsibilities in the evening...I consider this our bonus time, we don't have to wast time explaining to each other how our day was because we took care of that through out the day and on the ride home.

But sometimes one of us has an appointment in the city after work and we have to take two vehicles. This only happens maybe once every two months or so.

I miss him/us when we do this.....is that crazy? What ever! ~rolls eyes~ Crazy Schmazy

Sadly our drives may be part of whats keeping me at a job that makes my forehead wrinkly.

At least we still get to have our lunch together..........lucky ducks.

That's him up ahead on the right, I may or may not have been driving when I took this with my i-phone.

I ended up beating him to work even though I had to drop Nathan off at before and after school care.....! ha I'll be watching for a photo radar ticket in the mail soon, if it does come I will use it as evidence on why I should not be driving my self to work in the morning. I AM OUT OF CONTROL!

busy weekend recap

A couple of major things which occupied our weekend were;

preparing for a birthday party:

Having a birthday party:
(also wishing I wasn't so afraid just to use auto on the camera so I could actually get a few decent shots)

Putting the final touches on a Potato Power'd science experiment:
Taking care of final business for the big up and coming New York trip for one lucky 16 year old:


Making final snack purchases and checking off the packing list of one lucky (er..unlucky?) outdoor ed camper for this week:
~I just don't get it...but he likes it~

In all this the usual grocery shopping, laundry doing, house caring, swimming lesson, air cadet-ing, normal weekend. But I miss my friend. ~I miss you~ life's been busy, you've been sick and time has passed....time for a dance class! Yes!? oh yeah...it's time for us!

Stupid day light savings, losing an hour in the middle of crazy-ville. Lacking an hour of sleep is just not cool.

4.5 months later

I have finally finished The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo!!

I think that is some kind of record for me as the longest its ever taken me to read a book. I started it on the beach during our family vacation in Mexico last November...early November.

Now I get to watch the movie.

I need a new book to read...ideas? And NOT ~The Girl Who Plays With Fire~ I'm not ready for that yet.

Here I go....

I signed up with a ball team!!

Something I have wanted to do for so long. Being a full time working Mom of three busy children it has been somewhat impossible to do this, or any sport, for so many years. Which was a choice I made and was glad to do it, but as the kids got older and more independent I find time becoming more my own and a slight bit more manageable to do a few more 'me' things.

So this spring I put my name out there saying that I was ready, willing and able to join a ball team if any body wanted me....how exciting/scary. After a week or so I received a call, met up with the manger guy for lunch with my husband in tow (I wasn't crazily going alone) to explain to this semi-interested team manager what I meant exactly when I said things like " I haven't played in many years but I used to be good at it" or " I can't remember the rules so much but I am a quick learner" ~ I know, I can't believe I actually got a call from that either~ In the meeting I guess I some how managed to convince this guy to take pity on me and give me a shot, I showed such enthusiasm after all.....Turns out I remembered less than I thought of the game because I found I am playing slow-pitch not soft ball...slow-pitch has that six foot or more arc in the pitch among other rules that I am sure to 'quickly catch onto', I used to play soft ball which was a more direct, much faster pitch.

No matter, I am so excited to get going.

I play every Monday starting at the end of April if the snow ever melts. Shoot, Nathan plays soccer Mondays & Wednesdays...no biggy, a minor glitch in the system, we can make it work.
I bought my self a good, used, worked in comfortable glove. I got myself a ball too. Now I just need a bat and cleats. Oh, and the stupid snowy cold weather to GO AWAY ALREADY!!

I am so excited about this new adventure.....I hope I don't suck.

But I work hard too!

This is an "it's not fair" rant.....my guilty mind and need for self assurance will apologise in advance if I come off sounding like a spoiled brat who should just be happy for every I have and stop my sniveling already.

Our company is just kicking off its second annual 'biggest loser contest'. As with everything around here it is surrounded by whispers and controversy usually involving people who are to afraid to admit they need it. Harsh but true.


I am not over weight, not right now, I was for a time....kids, depression and other generic excuses made me that way....my light went on and I made changes. I work out hard. I exercise every chance I get, eat healthy-ish...more healthy now than 'ish'. I think positive (I try to think positive) and be a good example for my kids. I consciously think about what I am putting in my body and most recently cut waaaay down on my 'I was drinking red wine like kool-aid' habit to the point of not doing it at all to now being very sporadic. It was hard. All these changes were hard, but I WANTED them. I craved them.


I wanted to be healthy, have energy and feel great about my body, something I don't remember ever being...truly and fully. I am here. But its work, hard work baby, and not always fun but this is what I want and my choice.


The thing is, back to the at work contest, I watched people try last time this contest was on and only a very small few following through. This time around I see and hear people whispering and talking full of excuses and reasons not to join, they just haven't clicked yet. It makes me kind of mad...mad at them for not wanting it more, the good healthy feeling they could have. I don't say anything of course, it's not my place. It's not me they need to listen too its their body, heart and soul. They need to listen.


I can't join this contest, I don't have any weight to lose, I did it over time and work very hard to maintain this....but I am envious as all heck at the glory these people get.


Silly I know, the odd few talk and give each other advice of what to do next and how to move forward in their quest, I feel so happy for them and their new journey. I have tried in the past to join into the conversation and share what works for me and what I do but I get 'the look', its a look of " you have no idea what we are going through" " you don't understand" and I hear things like " 'yeah but its easier for you' or 'you don't have to work as hard' ....*sad face* but I do.


I wish I could join along in their contest, be a part of their quest for a new healthier life style. I wish I could be acknowledged for the hard work and daily choices I make. Feel that sense of accomplishment and change they are going through.


I watch shows like the Biggest loser and Heavy on TV and I tear up for these people, happy tears. So happy for them and their new beginning.


I want that. I want to join this contest because I think I could do well at it! I also want to delete that last line because it looks like an entry ticket into crazy town. I didn't delete it but I do now realize (thanks to this therapeutic rant) that I need to set a goal for my self, something above my comfort zone, something seemingly impossible so I can climb it and conquer it.....Just like my co-workers are doing.....I have to listen to me and pay attention to what I am making excuses not to do and do it.


OK, well...I guess my cheque is in the mail for this session.